Gordon

          Sometimes he convinced himself that he'd change his life in some way.  So as to perhaps lead a more minimal lifestyle or be more confident, restrained, and dignified in social affairs.  But then a week would pass and he'd find himself losing his temper, or making some mistake, or feeling that his life was off balance again.  Yet as much as he tried to recognize this cycle -- catch himself making some vague vow to himself that may very well prove to be an empty one, he couldn't seem to stop.